I’m not entirely sure why I’m a skeptic but I definitely am, especially when it comes to Church. I’m a very visually judgmental person (even though you will never notice it, and you wouldn’t think it.) and I know that is a bad thing. I also have a tendancy to think that people are what they appear to be, and I know that is wrong as well.

Although I find Church strange in the fact that the same Bible verses are referenced a million time in the span of only half my life time, it would appear there are more than a million different ways to look at something. Believe me I know what the right frame of mind can do for any sermon, and I know what the wrong frame of mind can do as well.

So as I sat there I pulled out my pins and began to draw a few doodles while listening, and as I listened I thought about a few things.

Here they are… I scribbled these down in Church as they came into my head…

Stories for us that we’ve never done or seen, but examples for us to think about. To pretend that we would give up our first born to trust God. Metaphors for life and examples, yet every time the same concepts with a new wrapper… Not always… It’s like a bag of different kinds of candy.

Will I really move mountains?
Will I really have the voice of even the Apostles?
To do what we can to break the Mold…What will we do?
I don’t like the Mold I feel like we stand in.
Is there something different coming?…different in the sense of social structure, something bad.
Is this Mold being built to make us weak?

Make no mistake, I don’t say these things because I’m new believer. I don’t say these things because I’m loosing my faith. I don’t say these things because I want an answer from you. these are rhetorical ‘?’s… But questions all the same, and when I find my answers I think things will be different.

I’ve been working on a personal project these last two days. I kind of like it when I get in this mode of thinking where I can’t stop till my eyes are bleeding. I’ve got a new theme built, and it’s for me.

this is not a pun on my name, and I’m am not randy right now, just tired…

Basically I wanted a place to be able to post more pics and drawing with out feeling the need to be coherent. I’ve got millions of drawings and tons of lame pics that will never get posted here. All the same I really want to have a place for my weirdness. (its one of those blogs you can view and entire month in a mater of 5min) — (also one of those blogs that you find and think, “what the hell is this crap?” its going to be awesome.)

oh, and the name is merandy.com. It’s a horrible name, but it makes me laugh…